I feel broken.
The love of my life just said that nothing in his life has value or brings him happiness (he put extra pressure on nothing).
I'm included in this... And I have to admit, it's a special kind of pain..
I'm going numb
in the most hurtfull sense of the word..
and I wish he would think enough about me to look here, on all my internet journals and see, what goes on inside me
truth is though, something like that would never occur to him
I feel absolutely horrible, and maybe I even feel upset as well that I'm putting up with this treatment.. but mostly I just hate myself for being a selfish bitch